Chapter 912
Chapter 912
Song Yichen and I are already the second child. If this child can't be saved, I don't know what to do in the next life.
"Heart..."
After that, I left the living room without looking back. When I went back to my bedroom, besides crying, I also knew how to vent my inner feelings.
I don't know how long I cried. When I cried again, I fell asleep. When I woke up again, the scenery outside was dark, just like my mood now.
I used to think that God was very fair to me. Although I lost my memory, at least it gave me a very good marriage, I didn't expect that my child would get such a disease.
Why does god treat me like this? I've never done anything harmful. Why can't it give me a healthy baby? Why should it punish me like this.
In the next period of time, I basically stayed in the hospital with the baby.
But song Yichen is desperately looking for the donor of bone marrow configuration. After more than ten days, song Yichen has lost a lap. Looking at me, I feel very sad.
I thought that song Yichen was the only one who knew that I couldn't match my child, but what I didn't expect was that all the people knew that I was the only one who didn't know.
This makes me very sad, in the next period of time, I often sit there alone.
In fact, I know they are all for the sake of my body, but in my heart, I just can't get through this.
Looking at the baby's body is getting worse day by day, I feel special remorse in my heart. I don't understand why my bone marrow can't match as the baby's mother.
I also looked up a lot of information on the Internet, the answer is very unclear, but I can't help but accept this reality.
No matter what, I will always be with the baby, no matter how the outcome, I believe I will bear.
At this time, song Kaixin came over with a thermos box in his hand. It seemed that it was time for lunch.
Since I knew I couldn't match my daughter, my family has been very worried about my situation.
In fact, I'm nothing, I just want to be quiet, don't want to talk more, but in their eyes, it seems that I will commit suicide at any time.
Even song Kaixin, who doesn't know anything for a day, will come to see me every day, and will personally deliver the meal to me every meal. Although I can't eat much food every time, she will still insist on delivering it for me.
This careful care, let my heart inside particularly moved.
"Sister-in-law, it's time to eat."
Then song Kaixin put the lunch box in front of me, and put the dishes in front of me.
Today, song Kaixin brings all these dishes that I like to eat. Every time song Kaixin brings delicious food to me like flowers, but I just can't eat them.
I know that these dishes are all made by song Yichen himself after work. Although song Yichen takes good care of me, every time I think about his concealment of me, I feel very angry.
Since that day, I have never said a word to you. I also know that song Yichen is very sad in his heart, and now the whole thing is on him, but I just can't forgive him.
"Happy you put it there first, I don't want to eat it."
After that, I turned my head and continued to look at my daughter in the isolation ward.
This little girl is cute. Since she was born, she seldom cries. No matter the nurse takes a bath with her or even the nurse gives her an injection, the baby doesn't cry. She always looks at others with her big eyes open, as if these things have nothing to do with her.
Such a strong let me do the mother very sad, if the baby cry out, maybe my heart will be a little better.
"Sister in law, don't do that. You'd better eat some. You can see how thin you are now. Even if you can't do bone marrow transplantation for your baby, you can't torture yourself like this."
When song Kaixin said this, there was a cry in his voice.
"I believe that if the baby can be sensible now, the baby's heart will not be easy, sister-in-law, you are not sad now, you need to take good care of your body, so that you can have a healthy body to take care of the baby, right?"
Hear happy say so, my eyes involuntarily wet up."Why do you torture yourself like this? If you torture yourself like this, the baby's illness will be better. If it can be better, I'd like to. I don't eat with you."
Said, song happy face wronged sitting beside me, and secretly put his hand to wipe the tears on his face.
"Sister-in-law, I know you are sad. We also feel bad in our hearts. I believe Yanran will get better. Not only do you torture yourself, but even my brother is not as thin as a man. Do you really want to make people look like ghosts because of this? Where is the sister-in-law I used to know?"
Looking at happy so sad, in fact, I want to comfort her, hope she is not so sad, but I really can't say.
"I look at you so uncomfortable, my heart is also particularly uncomfortable, if you can use life for Yan Ran, I will not hesitate to take their own life for Yan Ran to save hope, I just hope you and your brother can be good."
When he said that, song Kaixin burst into tears.
I've never seen song Kaixin so sad, which makes me feel that my depression in this period of time is wrong.
In fact, I also want to be strong, which makes everyone feel better, but I really can't do it, although I know my current state, which makes them very worried.
But I never have a thought of suicide, I just want to stay in my own world, don't want to let them into my world, I just want to stay alone.
"Happy, you don't like this, OK? In fact, I'm ok. I'm just not hungry. I'll eat when I'm hungry."
Suddenly song Kaixin reached out and held my hand tightly, looking at me with a begging expression.
"Sister-in-law, I really can't stand it. Can you go back to the strong and cheerful you before? I don't want to see you like this now. I don't like your negative appearance now. Even if you can't be cured in the future, I hope you can face life firmly instead of like this. You have to understand that you have family support behind you, You're not alone. "
I always know that there is support behind me, and I also know that they love me very much, and I love them very much.
"Do you know what you are doing now? We are very worried. I don't know what you think in your heart. I just hope you can face this thing correctly. I believe no one wants to happen this kind of thing. But since it happened, we should face it correctly, not like you. "
I didn't expect to be able to say such a thing in a few days.
I still remember the last time when I had a heart to heart talk with her, she was still doing whatever she wanted as a child. I didn't expect that this period of time had changed her so much.
"Thank you! I will be strong. Don't worry. I just want to be alone. "
In fact, I also want you not to worry about my affairs, but the more I think about it, the more worried they are about me, as if I were a little child.
"If you want to be quiet, no one will stop you, but I hope you can eat on time every day. Do you know my mother has fallen ill because of you?"
Ganma is ill. Why didn't anyone tell me about it.
"In fact, I don't want to tell you this, but I just want you to know that your body is not your own, but ours. If you have any problems, I believe no one will be better. I hope you can take good care of your body, just for my parents."
No wonder the godmother didn't come to the hospital these two days. It turned out that she was ill.
A few days ago, my godmother came to see me every day, but she didn't go to the hospital at all these days. I still wonder if there was any delay. After a long time, I fell ill.
"What's the matter with Ma? What's wrong with Ma! Did she go to see it? "
This period of time, godmother's body itself is very bad, I did not expect that she is really sick.
"Yes, it doesn't matter. The doctor said that you can't be too angry. If you are angry again, your mother's body will not be able to stand it. So I hope you can just pretend to be in front of your mother for the sake of your mother's kindness. Don't be like this. If you do this again, the family will really collapse."
Then I realized the seriousness of the matter. It seems that my mood is really making a mess in this home.
I used to think that my own emotions had little effect on them. At most, I was sad for a few days. I didn't expect that I would make my godmother sick, which I never thought of.No, I can't stay in the hospital. Now I have to go to see the godmother. I can't let the godmother's body have any problems because of my selfishness. If that's the case, I can't forgive myself all my life.
"Happy, where is mom now?"
Sitting on the sofa when happy, a sad face said.
"Mom's at home."
After getting the answer, I ran out without looking back. At this time, song Kaixin's voice came from behind.
"Sister in law, where are you going! Are you not eating? "
Where am I in the mood to eat now? I just want to see what happened to godmother.
"I don't want to eat any more. I'm going to see the godmother now. You can give that meal to your brother." After that, I turned my head and ran out of the hospital.
When I rushed home, godfather was busy living in the kitchen. When he saw me, he was very surprised.
"Xinxin, aren't you in the hospital! How to run back, is something wrong with the baby, I look at you so anxious
Then Godfather came out of the kitchen in a hurry. When Godfather came to me, he looked at me worried.
"Dad, the baby is OK. I'm happy to hear that my mother is ill. I'll come back to see her. How's her body now?"
"Heart..."
After that, I left the living room without looking back. When I went back to my bedroom, besides crying, I also knew how to vent my inner feelings.
I don't know how long I cried. When I cried again, I fell asleep. When I woke up again, the scenery outside was dark, just like my mood now.
I used to think that God was very fair to me. Although I lost my memory, at least it gave me a very good marriage, I didn't expect that my child would get such a disease.
Why does god treat me like this? I've never done anything harmful. Why can't it give me a healthy baby? Why should it punish me like this.
In the next period of time, I basically stayed in the hospital with the baby.
But song Yichen is desperately looking for the donor of bone marrow configuration. After more than ten days, song Yichen has lost a lap. Looking at me, I feel very sad.
I thought that song Yichen was the only one who knew that I couldn't match my child, but what I didn't expect was that all the people knew that I was the only one who didn't know.
This makes me very sad, in the next period of time, I often sit there alone.
In fact, I know they are all for the sake of my body, but in my heart, I just can't get through this.
Looking at the baby's body is getting worse day by day, I feel special remorse in my heart. I don't understand why my bone marrow can't match as the baby's mother.
I also looked up a lot of information on the Internet, the answer is very unclear, but I can't help but accept this reality.
No matter what, I will always be with the baby, no matter how the outcome, I believe I will bear.
At this time, song Kaixin came over with a thermos box in his hand. It seemed that it was time for lunch.
Since I knew I couldn't match my daughter, my family has been very worried about my situation.
In fact, I'm nothing, I just want to be quiet, don't want to talk more, but in their eyes, it seems that I will commit suicide at any time.
Even song Kaixin, who doesn't know anything for a day, will come to see me every day, and will personally deliver the meal to me every meal. Although I can't eat much food every time, she will still insist on delivering it for me.
This careful care, let my heart inside particularly moved.
"Sister-in-law, it's time to eat."
Then song Kaixin put the lunch box in front of me, and put the dishes in front of me.
Today, song Kaixin brings all these dishes that I like to eat. Every time song Kaixin brings delicious food to me like flowers, but I just can't eat them.
I know that these dishes are all made by song Yichen himself after work. Although song Yichen takes good care of me, every time I think about his concealment of me, I feel very angry.
Since that day, I have never said a word to you. I also know that song Yichen is very sad in his heart, and now the whole thing is on him, but I just can't forgive him.
"Happy you put it there first, I don't want to eat it."
After that, I turned my head and continued to look at my daughter in the isolation ward.
This little girl is cute. Since she was born, she seldom cries. No matter the nurse takes a bath with her or even the nurse gives her an injection, the baby doesn't cry. She always looks at others with her big eyes open, as if these things have nothing to do with her.
Such a strong let me do the mother very sad, if the baby cry out, maybe my heart will be a little better.
"Sister in law, don't do that. You'd better eat some. You can see how thin you are now. Even if you can't do bone marrow transplantation for your baby, you can't torture yourself like this."
When song Kaixin said this, there was a cry in his voice.
"I believe that if the baby can be sensible now, the baby's heart will not be easy, sister-in-law, you are not sad now, you need to take good care of your body, so that you can have a healthy body to take care of the baby, right?"
Hear happy say so, my eyes involuntarily wet up."Why do you torture yourself like this? If you torture yourself like this, the baby's illness will be better. If it can be better, I'd like to. I don't eat with you."
Said, song happy face wronged sitting beside me, and secretly put his hand to wipe the tears on his face.
"Sister-in-law, I know you are sad. We also feel bad in our hearts. I believe Yanran will get better. Not only do you torture yourself, but even my brother is not as thin as a man. Do you really want to make people look like ghosts because of this? Where is the sister-in-law I used to know?"
Looking at happy so sad, in fact, I want to comfort her, hope she is not so sad, but I really can't say.
"I look at you so uncomfortable, my heart is also particularly uncomfortable, if you can use life for Yan Ran, I will not hesitate to take their own life for Yan Ran to save hope, I just hope you and your brother can be good."
When he said that, song Kaixin burst into tears.
I've never seen song Kaixin so sad, which makes me feel that my depression in this period of time is wrong.
In fact, I also want to be strong, which makes everyone feel better, but I really can't do it, although I know my current state, which makes them very worried.
But I never have a thought of suicide, I just want to stay in my own world, don't want to let them into my world, I just want to stay alone.
"Happy, you don't like this, OK? In fact, I'm ok. I'm just not hungry. I'll eat when I'm hungry."
Suddenly song Kaixin reached out and held my hand tightly, looking at me with a begging expression.
"Sister-in-law, I really can't stand it. Can you go back to the strong and cheerful you before? I don't want to see you like this now. I don't like your negative appearance now. Even if you can't be cured in the future, I hope you can face life firmly instead of like this. You have to understand that you have family support behind you, You're not alone. "
I always know that there is support behind me, and I also know that they love me very much, and I love them very much.
"Do you know what you are doing now? We are very worried. I don't know what you think in your heart. I just hope you can face this thing correctly. I believe no one wants to happen this kind of thing. But since it happened, we should face it correctly, not like you. "
I didn't expect to be able to say such a thing in a few days.
I still remember the last time when I had a heart to heart talk with her, she was still doing whatever she wanted as a child. I didn't expect that this period of time had changed her so much.
"Thank you! I will be strong. Don't worry. I just want to be alone. "
In fact, I also want you not to worry about my affairs, but the more I think about it, the more worried they are about me, as if I were a little child.
"If you want to be quiet, no one will stop you, but I hope you can eat on time every day. Do you know my mother has fallen ill because of you?"
Ganma is ill. Why didn't anyone tell me about it.
"In fact, I don't want to tell you this, but I just want you to know that your body is not your own, but ours. If you have any problems, I believe no one will be better. I hope you can take good care of your body, just for my parents."
No wonder the godmother didn't come to the hospital these two days. It turned out that she was ill.
A few days ago, my godmother came to see me every day, but she didn't go to the hospital at all these days. I still wonder if there was any delay. After a long time, I fell ill.
"What's the matter with Ma? What's wrong with Ma! Did she go to see it? "
This period of time, godmother's body itself is very bad, I did not expect that she is really sick.
"Yes, it doesn't matter. The doctor said that you can't be too angry. If you are angry again, your mother's body will not be able to stand it. So I hope you can just pretend to be in front of your mother for the sake of your mother's kindness. Don't be like this. If you do this again, the family will really collapse."
Then I realized the seriousness of the matter. It seems that my mood is really making a mess in this home.
I used to think that my own emotions had little effect on them. At most, I was sad for a few days. I didn't expect that I would make my godmother sick, which I never thought of.No, I can't stay in the hospital. Now I have to go to see the godmother. I can't let the godmother's body have any problems because of my selfishness. If that's the case, I can't forgive myself all my life.
"Happy, where is mom now?"
Sitting on the sofa when happy, a sad face said.
"Mom's at home."
After getting the answer, I ran out without looking back. At this time, song Kaixin's voice came from behind.
"Sister in law, where are you going! Are you not eating? "
Where am I in the mood to eat now? I just want to see what happened to godmother.
"I don't want to eat any more. I'm going to see the godmother now. You can give that meal to your brother." After that, I turned my head and ran out of the hospital.
When I rushed home, godfather was busy living in the kitchen. When he saw me, he was very surprised.
"Xinxin, aren't you in the hospital! How to run back, is something wrong with the baby, I look at you so anxious
Then Godfather came out of the kitchen in a hurry. When Godfather came to me, he looked at me worried.
"Dad, the baby is OK. I'm happy to hear that my mother is ill. I'll come back to see her. How's her body now?"