Chapter 31
I Hate You
In the bathroom, cold water was poured over my head.
The cool water flowed down her hair and spread all over her body, but it did nothing to quell the burning heat in her bones.
Shen Yi leaned against the wall, his hands braced on the tiles, his knuckles white from the effort, his suppressed breathing barely audible amidst the sound of water.
It felt like two voices were fighting in my head.
One person said: "Solve it yourself. Never ask that woman for help. Don't let her laugh at us."
Another person was shouting: Su Qiu is right outside, she can help you, she's the only one who can help you right now...
The feeling of emptiness in my body is getting stronger and stronger.
It felt like countless hands were pulling at his sanity.
They're clamoring to be filled up.
He tried to do it himself, but the slight relief was of no use.
Instead, it made that desire surge even stronger.
"Shen Yi, you can't go... you can't go to her..."
He gritted his teeth, muttering a warning to himself, the veins on his forehead throbbing.
Going to her would be tantamount to admitting that you can't live without her.
It's equivalent to completely bowing down to her.
That is self-degradation.
"This can't be...this is wrong..."
He murmured repeatedly, as if hypnotizing himself.
But the body's reactions became increasingly uncontrollable, with every inch of skin screaming for touch and warmth.
Su Qiu is needed.
At last.
He suddenly closed his eyes, as if he had made some difficult decision.
When I opened my eyes again, the struggle in them had faded.
All that remained was a crimson hue consumed by desire.
With a "bang".
Shen Yi yanked open the bathroom door, water droplets trickling down his taut muscles.
He didn't even bother to put on a coat before striding out of the bathroom, his gaze fixed on Su Qiu on the sofa.
In those eyes, there was resentment, there was forbearance, but even more so, there was a yearning that could no longer be suppressed.
Shen Yi stood at the bathroom door, water droplets sliding down his sharply defined cheeks and soaking the floor.
He radiated a burning heat, and the desire in his eyes was almost overflowing, but he held back and didn't go any further.
Su Qiu sat on the sofa, her fingertips idly tracing the armrest.
She looked up at him, her expression calm and unmoved.
Time passed second by second, and the heat in the air seemed to solidify.
for a long time.
Shen Yi's Adam's apple bobbed violently, his voice hoarse as if it had been sanded, with a barely perceptible tremor:
"Please... help me..."
Su Qiu raised an eyebrow, remaining motionless, and slowly asked, "Who am I?"
"Su... Su Qiu."
Shen Yi gritted his teeth, each word sounding as if he had exhausted all his strength.
At the same time, he subconsciously took a few more steps forward, bringing the two of them even closer.
"Voluntary?"
She asked again, her gaze fixed directly into his eyes.
Shen Yi's cheeks flushed an unnatural red, his eyes darted around, but he still nodded, his voice barely audible:
"Um."
"No coercion?"
"No...no."
His breathing became more and more rapid, and water droplets dripped from his body onto the ground.
It made soft, rustling sounds, which mingled with the sounds of their intertwined breaths.
now.
They were almost touching, their breaths mingling, creating a dangerous tension.
Looking at the struggle and longing in his eyes, Su Qiu finally smiled with interest:
"You're such a good girl."
Shen Yi's eyelashes trembled violently, as if burned by those two words.
He raised his eyes, and those usually sharp and cold eyes were now covered with a layer of moisture.
His pupils were slightly dilated, revealing a hint of docility, like that of a small animal.
Its heart-shaped curve is filled with indescribable emotions.
"If I'm good, you'll help me, right?"
Su Qiu raised an eyebrow. "That depends on how well-behaved you are."
Shen Yi looked at Su Qiu, said nothing more, and kissed Su Qiu directly.
His usual coldness and aloofness vanished without a trace.
All that remained was an almost instinctive craving.
Every breath he took intertwined with hers, he was incredibly docile.
He was completely different from the tense and confrontational man he used to be.
He didn't beg for mercy again, didn't mention Su Qian again, and didn't utter a single curse.
He simply followed his body's instincts and responded to her touch.
As the kiss deepened, Shen Yi breathed heavily, his forehead pressed against hers.
A faint, starlike light flickered in his eyes, and his voice carried a heavy nasal tone.
"Su Qiu, I really hate you..."
"Yes, I heard you."
Su Qiu traced his cheek with her fingertips, her tone calm yet conveying a knowing understanding.
"You're flirting."
Shen Yi himself didn't know how to respond.
Perhaps it will be an even deeper kiss.
Perhaps it was just a faint sigh.
All he knew was that the mix of hatred and love inside him was screaming wildly.
I hate her domineering nature, and I hate how easily she can disrupt my peace of mind.
Yet, in such a moment of loss of control, I find myself yearning for the warmth she brings, the warmth that fills all the emptiness within me.
This complex thought was completely exposed to Su Qiu, leaving him nowhere to hide.
……
Shen Yi blinked his watery eyes, the corners of which were red.
Like a beast that has been provoked but has become dependent on.
He held Su Qiu tightly.
Su Qiu frowned slightly as he tightened his grip, looking down at his reddened eyes, her tone carrying a hint of warning mockery:
"Shen Yi, what are you going to do?"
Shen Yi seemed not to hear her, but simply raised his hand and gripped the back of her head, forcing her to lower her head. His voice was thick with nasal tone and carried an undeniable pleading:
"Kiss me..."
The voice no longer held the resistance and awkwardness of the past, only a straightforward, burning desire remained.
Seeing the emotions surging in his eyes, Su Qiu lowered her head and kissed him.
This time.
The intertwining of their lips and teeth had lessened the probing and more of a heated, evenly matched contest.
……
"Snap—!"
Su Qiu felt a sinking sensation beneath her.
"Damn it!" Su Qiu couldn't help but curse under his breath.
Damn it, the bed collapsed.
……