Chapter 860
Chapter 860
"You're tired, and I'm tired too. I'm so tired I can't take it anymore. You all keep bothering me, how can I not be tired? You all keep finding fault, bothering me for no reason, how can I not be tired? I'm so tired my back aches, my knees ache, and I don't feel comfortable anywhere on my body. And what do you do? You think I have bad intentions. You actually think I have bad intentions, so what am I supposed to say? I won't say anything, there's no need for me to say anything, don't you think? I really don't need to say any of this, what's the point? It's completely useless, absolutely useless. You all know what I want to do, right? Sometimes I really don't know what to say to you anymore, you're all so incredibly stupid..." But you all insist on being clever. It's one thing to be clever, but you also drag others into this mess. Aren't you incredibly stupid? I really think you're incredibly stupid. If you had any ideas, I wouldn't be in this situation, right? If you had even the slightest idea, I wouldn't be forced into this predicament, right? No, I'm not stupid, I'm really not stupid. I'm just dragged down by you guys. None of you are good people. I'm dragged down by you. I really don't want to be dragged down by you, but I have no choice. If I weren't dragged down by you, I really wouldn't know what to do. You guys are all bad people, you're all just causing me trouble. Is it useful? You think that no matter how much trouble you cause me, it won't do any good, okay?
"No matter how much trouble you cause me, it won't be of any use whatsoever. It won't be of any use whatsoever. If it were of any use whatsoever, you wouldn't be doing this. Don't you agree? I think that's the truth, but you just don't want to believe it. Really, I think you just don't want to believe it at all."
"If you had believed, things wouldn't have come to this, would they?"
"Okay, I really don't know what to do anymore, really, I have absolutely no idea what to do."
"I really want to kill you all. If I kill you all, I'm sure I won't have any problems. Don't you think that makes sense? Once you're all gone, what trouble will there be? No trouble at all. Don't you think so? I think that's exactly it. If I can kill you all, then what I need to do next will be very easy to accomplish. But you're unwilling."
"You're unwilling, you're unwilling. Since you're unwilling, then don't meddle, okay? If you were willing, then there would definitely be no problem, but you're unwilling. In this situation, what am I supposed to do? I really have no way out. If there were any way, I wouldn't mind showing you the right path, but you refuse to accept it. You insist that the path I point out is harmful to you. Tell me, what do you think is the right answer? I feel like I really can't do it. What about you? Go find your savior. As long as you don't come to me, everything will be fine. As long as you don't come to me, then everything will return to nature, return to peace. This will only benefit you, there will be no harm. Really, this will absolutely only benefit you, there will be no harm. This is my honest opinion, and it's a fact. I really hope you can believe me. If you don't want to believe me, then there's nothing I can do. There's really absolutely nothing I can do."
"Sigh, it's really a painful thing, extremely painful, you know? My current situation is very painful, extremely painful. But there's nothing I can do, sometimes I really don't know what to do. So you actually have a lot to do now. You not only have to take care of yourself, but also take care of this world. If you don't take care of this world, you should know the consequences very well, I don't need to say it again, right? You know very well the consequences, I don't need to say more, you also know what consequences you will face?"
"To be honest, this is a really upsetting thing, extremely upsetting, unimaginably upsetting. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do."
"All you're saying is just an excuse for your failure. All you're saying is trying to find a legitimate reason for your failure. Don't you know that?"
Fang Yu laughed at Zhang Ruochen's words, and then he looked Zhang Ruochen up and down seriously.
"Not bad, not bad, you've finally grown up a bit, at least a little bit. If you hadn't grown up, there really wouldn't have been any way to deal with you. You're absolutely right, completely right, there's nothing wrong with that, I admit that. But I didn't do anything wrong, nor did I do anything right. All I can say is that everything I did was for the sake of balance. As for how far this balance can be achieved, it depends on the strength of each side. Some are strong, some are weak, this one is strong, that one is weak, that one is weak, this one is strong. In short, it depends on their respective abilities. As long as they don't cross that bottom line, it has nothing to do with me, and I won't meddle, because the consequences of meddling are extremely dire. Under these circumstances, only a fool would choose to meddle."
"Isn't that the logic? I think that's the logic. If you think this is also wrong, then you can choose someone who has nothing to do with me. However, he may not be able to do what I have done. If he can't, then the consequences will be very serious. You should know this better than I do. Sometimes I really don't know what to say to you. You have a brain now, but you'll soon lose it. You don't understand at all what I'm doing all this for. In your eyes, everything I'm doing is just to find a reason for myself."
"And what is this reason? You know it, you should know it too. To be precise, you must know what this reason is, but you don't know it at all. Under these circumstances, how can I trust you, how can I entrust everything to you? Aren't you joking? Since you're joking, what can I say? I can't say anything. Don't you think that makes sense?"
"What a pity, you don't even understand the most basic principles. How can I feel at ease in this situation? How can I leave with peace of mind? I never intended to harm this world, do you know that? Unfortunately, in your eyes, I would be the culprit who harms this world. In this situation, what can I do if you ask me to? I can only slink away. Just like you said, everything I did was to find excuses for my failure, but how could I not fail? I'm fighting against the villains of this world, and against the heroes of this world, but does this world even have heroes and villains? Or does it not?"
"Don't you understand this? Don't you know it? You should know this, you should understand this, you should know this, you should know all of this."
"But you don't understand any of it, you don't comprehend any of it, you don't know anything at all. Instead, you just blame others, like blaming me. No matter how much you blame me, no matter how much you resent me, what's the use? Absolutely none of it. Even if you blame me to death, it won't do any good. Even if you kill me, it won't do any good, because you can't change the final outcome. What is this final outcome? I think you should know how tragic it is. You should understand, but you just don't understand. You insist that everything you've done is right, that everything you've done is without fault. Under these circumstances, how can you expect those people to forgive you? In other words, do you even deserve forgiveness? Have you ever thought about that question? Have you ever thought about that complete question?"
"You've never considered that you're just like that old bald monk, stubborn and only caring about your own feelings, never considering others. If you could gain anything under these circumstances, it would be a miracle, and I don't want that either." "I'm really tired, extremely tired. That's why I say extremely tired—because you're such a fool. You're incredibly stupid, unimaginably stupid. You should understand this, you must understand this. If you don't, it's bad for everyone. So you should honestly try to understand what you need to understand. If you don't, the consequences will be very serious."
"Anyway, you have a lot to do right now, far more than you can imagine. You should understand this and know it. Don't think about those bad things. It's no use thinking about them. Even if you want to change them, you can't. And even if you could, the price you would have to pay would be far beyond your imagination."
"You understand this now, right? You get it now?"
"If you still don't understand, then hurry up and get your brain fixed. Don't think about those messy things. There's really no need to think about those messy things."
"Sometimes you can't figure things out no matter how hard you try, so you should think about good things instead of so many bad things. Don't think about bad things, really don't."
"Because no matter how much you think about it, it's useless. It's completely pointless, utterly useless. In this situation, what's there to say? There's absolutely no need to think about those bad things anymore. If you insist on thinking about it, I won't stop you, I won't stop you. Do you understand now?"
"No matter how much you say, it won't change one thing: everything you've done is to cover up your mistakes. It's not for anyone else, not for the world, but to cover up your mistakes. You're so wrong that it's unimaginable, which is why you've done so much just to cover up your own dirty mistakes."
"Who taught you to say that? What you're saying is utterly ridiculous."
"No one is more ridiculous than you. You're unbelievably ridiculous. I don't even know why you would say something so absurd. Don't you think your words are ridiculous?"
"That's ridiculous! These comments are absolutely ridiculous, ridiculous beyond belief. In this situation, do you think it's necessary for you to spout this nonsense? Even if you want to spout this nonsense, you shouldn't be saying it to me. You should be saying it to people who are useful to you, not to me here. Because it's completely useless, you know? You're completely useless, and you have no right to say it to me. You really have absolutely no right to say these things. It's meaningless, absolutely meaningless. It's not worth it."
"So all I hope is that you can use your brain a little. I originally thought you had just started to grow a little bit of intelligence, but now it seems that your brain hasn't grown at all. Your brain is still residing in your cerebellum, or rather, what's in your brain is really a headache, a very, very headache-inducing thing. No matter what you think, you must do this, which is to understand what you need to do, instead of just forcing things here. No matter how much you force things, no matter how much you resent, it's useless. I can't offer you much help here. You should understand this, you should comprehend this, you should realize this."
"So there's absolutely no need to care about these things; it's useless no matter how much you care."
"Because it was completely meaningless, absolutely meaningless. If it had been even the slightest bit meaningful, it wouldn't have ended up like this."
"Alright, you should go do what you're supposed to do. Stop being presumptuous in front of me. Do you think being presumptuous in front of me will do any good? No, absolutely no good. If it were even slightly useful, you wouldn't be in this state. Alright, I've said everything clearly and thoroughly. I hope you understand."
"You should go where you belong, not here. If you come here, you're not far from death. Please, don't come near me again." (End of Chapter)